Matthew's journal Page 1

Dear, Journal

6 weeks till graduation

It seemed like any other day  at the movies....Well, I guess besides no one was there. I was watching an old french movie, no subtitles nothing. I was kinda surprised when I found my local theater was playing it. It was a romance. Usually romances bore me, but french movies always seem to interest me, so I decided to go anyways.
        The movie was already half way done when a young man walked into the small darken room. I wouldn't have heard him if these chairs didn’t squeak when you fold them open. I turned my attention to him, suddenly surprised that someone other than myself actual came here.
          The boy was obviously again, though his eyes were slightly larger than most orientalis. he had long jet black hair that lightly covered his eyes. I couldn't help but stare at him. And I think he noticed. It seemed as if he was peeking from the corners of his square classes so he could see me unnoticed.
                    I was just about positive that I was imagining things.
I returned my attention to the movie, things were getting hot now. I probably should have checked the rating on this movie before I waltz in. Since my town is so small everyone knows each other, and lucky me my friend works at the ticket booth, so I can get into any movie I want without even asking. Now, I AM 17 you'd really think this wouldn't bother me...but it does. I couldn't help but look away.
      The again boy just a few seats away from me was jotting down some notes as he stared intensely at the screen. I guess he thought I was taking it the wrong way, because when he noticed I was staring he stopped. I felt so embarrassed, I looked the other way.

      Everything calmed down. it seems like something happened during the little 'scene' that was a major part in the movie. I became lost. and before I noticed the movie credits appeared. I turned my head to the right to see if that boy was still there. He was gone. I was relieved, yet disappointed. There was just something about that boy that made me want to see him..

    " Are you looking for me?...."
I jumped at the soft sound of a voice, with a heavy french accent.  I turned around, it was the again boy. and he's french?

I didn't say anything. The boy grinned chuckling mockingly. A brush of bright pink came across my face. The boy touched my check with the back of his hand. then walked away.  I was dum-strucked. I stood up from the chair and ran out the small theater room to look for him. He was there waiting at the door for me...well i think he was.

     He extended his arm out offering a hand shake,
" Bonjour. My name is Daniel."

" Uhh..oh hi. umm my names Matthew.." I said hesitantly.
  He chuckled at me again,
         "You go to J.B High right?"

          "Oh, yeah. How'd you now?"

          "I'm in your AP french class...."
I felt like such an idiot. The school year's almost over and I haven't even noticed him before.

         "oh...umm.. you excited for graduation?" I was desperate, I tried to make small talk.
         " Hmph, I guess. But I’m gonna miss school."
       I nodded in agreement, not having an answer ready. Daniel looked at the silver watch then looked back at me.
        "Well, I got to go, it's getting late. See you tomorrow?" He was right it was almost one AM,
        "oh, yeah of course. maybe we can hang out later tomorrow, or I mean today..."
He chuckled softly at my mistake at walked away, his black notebook in his hand.

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        Break Time Before 4th period


And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change...As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever..


I was listening to Vitamin C ... very unmanly of me but that song just gets me every time, especially since graduation is only a short few weeks away..
I turned the volume up while I ate my snack bar, but then i felt a tap on my shoulder.

It was Daniel.
"Oh," I pulled off my head phones "Hey Daniel."
Daniel smiled, a soft sweet smile. I felt so guilty for not noticing him at all this year.  I mean how could I miss someone so beautiful.....Wait what am I talking about? He's just a guy....

     "Come on I wanna show you something" He reached out his hand to help my off the floor. I smiled and grabbed his hand to help myself up. He lead my to the bathroom, i was starting to wonder what he would want to show me in the bathroom.
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I feel so dirty. I just wanna cry my eyes out. I mean...urghh I hate even thinking about it. I mean we've only known each other for like, what one day? Why would he do that.

          Yeah,yeah. I guess your wondering what im talking about. Well...Let me take it through you slowly.

First he was just showing me his art work. it was beautiful. Then I skimped through some of his notes on the movie. Turns out he wants to be a movie director, that’s why he was taking notes, not for.... other reasons.

Then, he touched my check again.

And before i noticed,

My arms were around him, my eyes filled with tears.

And then it happened....

He.......he kissed me.


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